WARNING: graphic and frank discussion of sex and raw emotion Here I sit at the end of this month (Feb) after abstaining from sexual pleasure for an entire month. I did do a Venus ritual on valentine’s day but that was a revel in goddess energy, not mere sexual gratification. I realized more about myself […]Read More Frustration of the Carve, Sacral Release Pt. 2
Modern life is not what it seems at all. Humanity on Earth has been separated from the greater consciousness of the universe. The vibration, frequency or energy that passes through us all and gives us existence also connects us. When our bodies and other planes of vision or dimensions are clear, we are simply at […]Read More Shattering Genesis
This year has been a long one. Forcing one to become insightful and mindful Seeing into the red scene beneath the scar Looking at your own reflection, and speaking aloud “is this thy fate or misfortune,” “my fault or the universe design” “his words or her thoughts “ My thoughts as I look into the […]Read More Tutorial is Over
I went to a strip club after being away from the scene for a year and a half now. I told one of the dancers that I do tarot and astrology and she was like that’s scary. Considering it’s what I love to do, I understand the stigma surrounding it because of media and religious […]Read More Being Responsible with my Power
As I lay here next to my husband, I started to think about the state of masculinity. It is sad to see good men wasting away on consumerism. Ideas lost in the so-called free market. Disappointed by their fathers. Unemotionally disconnected to society in an unhealthy way. On the internet, it’s obvious in every corner […]Read More Dear Divine Masculine
I am a Shaman Initiate. That is what I’ve discovered is the best suited role for this incarnation. I came to understand this through reflection and meditation. I have wanted to be a doctor growing up as I was always interested in helping others feel better or just learning more about people. I narrowed […]Read More Why am I a Shaman?
The nature of True Love. So mysterious and desired. Yet it is so easy to fall in love. We know what it is and at the same time we do not. Well we can go a scientific route and start eliminating what it isn’t. Love is not sex or sexual. Love is not tyrannical. It […]Read More A Letter on Love
How reasonable are expectations of love? Real genuine love that fills you to the brim like a perfect herbal tea when the aroma is enough to sustain you before you even take a sip? Are we even sure we can define real love in this age? It seems hard to do so these days considering […]Read More Seeds of Paradise