Aquarius United

You ever feel like this world wants you to do something you don’t want to do? 

Like it feel like a setup contrary to what you know you want to do?

Maybe it’s just me.

I feel like I lose my grip on reality because I thought I was understanding but this world works opposite to simple rationality. I want to bring it to sense but I feel so alone that maybe it was just meant to be that way for humanity even though there’s a better way so we don’t end up suffering as much. Like the traditions have spiraled out of control and now it’s too far gone the other way and we risk being in the dark ages again.

I feel like as I get closer to a sense of real sanity, I get kicked back by the reaction of everyone else. I don’t want to be an alien, I’m trying to be human but I don’t think anyone knows what it means to be human anymore.

I see it underneath it all but there’s so much on top that I wish it could just be cleaned up so we could truly start over. Like with the hoarding, it can be superficially cleaned but the source isn’t cleared. The truth isn’t sorted out so it quickly gets lost again. It’s been shattered and pieces of it are in the dark and some lies have gained light.

I guess that’s why I have such an issue with all of this. I know this and I have to discern every grain of salt to create a nugget of truth. I need to get away from this world and be reborn in a place that will teach me effectively so I can be discerning. I have to build my spiritual discipline I will keep Christ’s and my ancestors close to me. I gotten so used to pushing them away so I can find a materialist comfort.